I have learned...

I have learned
Nothing is ever perfect.
I have learned
At most times people just don't try hard enough.

I have learned
It is important to work hard.
I have learned
It works to work 'smart'.

I have learned
It hurts to love.
I have learned
Love is not supposed to hurt.

I have learned
Family stays.
I have learned
At the end of the day you're on your own.

I have learned
It is impossible to completely let go.
I have learned
Sometimes it is harder to hold on.

I have learned
Life is beautiful.
I have learned
All good things DO come to an end.

I have learned
To trust with all my heart.
I have learned
It is most important to believe in yourself.

I have learned
It is very important to be reasonable.
I have learned
All things that can be logically reasoned may not be 'right'.

I have learned
It is important to be practical.
I have learned
It takes a lot to stick to your ethics.

I have learned
It is important to be "efficient".
I have learned
It is worth everything it takes if you can face yourself in the mirror every day.

I have learned
Bonds grow stronger.
I have learned
The inevitable AND the evitable can strike.

I have learned
We are responsible for our choices and the consequences.
I have learned
The thing called 'fate' can flip everything over in a millisecond.

I have learned
It feels brilliant to be in control.
I have learned
It also feels brilliant to lose control.

I have learned
Sometimes it is important to severe ties.
I have learned
Most times convenience wins.

I have learned
Everything can change overnight.
I have learned
Everything can remain the same.

I learn...

-Sriya Coomer.

Feb 18th,'07

The Ressurection

I wrote this in 11th grade during history class (DOUBLE PERIOD -we were still getting used to it then).


I smile
But there’s this pain
Living inside;
I’m supposed to be happy,
These are after all
Precious moments of life.
But there lurks this darkness
I’m hiding in me.


*Plunder*


Laughter
Fades into stillness
Of the stars;
And pain surfaces
Into the heaven of
My heart.


*Façade*


Friendships
New and broken
Leave me shaken
With joy and distress;
And I’m scared no less
Of feelings born
Once again.


*Fallen*


I triumph
Again and again
In so many ways,
Taste of my winnings
Is,oh,so sweet;
But it’s sweeter
With the burden
Of unsaid failures.


*Broken*


Love –
Brings joy into my life;
Wounds my heals;
Opens closed doors,
But listen,
I wanted them closed.


*Numbness*


Life
Is beautiful,
But it means not just breathing,
It’s about living –
Yes,living the pain every day
Again and again,
Is not death beautiful?


*Death*


My heart
Is full
With showers of life –
And my soul explodes
Into grace –
So is this the end?
This IS the end…


*Burial*


Beginning of the end…
In my ear
Hope and despair
Whisper at the same instance,
It is time…
To find myself again;
It’s time again
To *live*
In both joy and pain,
In faith and desolation…
And yet it’s time
To live again…


*Birth*













-Sriya Coomer,'06


P.S-The title,courtesy-Samata Dutta

Pain

Often when a moment of crisis is prevalent,we cry out loud,questioning the times and ourselves as to what the pain that we are enduring could possibly be of value to our lives.A most personal feeling,and we are so afraid to talk about anything personal.But one thing we fail to understand - is that everything IS personal.

Pain.Just a concept for some who may write theses on it.But only those who endure it understand its deeper implications that can only be comprehended through the depth of feeling.

I read somewhere-pain and distress are transient just like life is - a plan of the Eternal.
Death of a loved one.Loss.Despair.Failure.Disappointment.
Death does not close all-it is only a beginning or rather a continuation into the next bit of the REAL PLAN.

Feel the suffering.Embrace it,enjoy it even.Believe in it.Let it make you BEAUTIFUL.

Seize the goddamn moment regardless of what each momentum brings,be it joy or tears.Just FEEL.Just LIVE.Know that you can.

This very suffering shall bring with it the courage to be strong.The courage to move on.

Often our failings as human beings bring pain to us.If we are forgiven by those we injure we feel redeemed (redemption has stories to tell).When we forgive others for the pain and suffering they inflict on us,we are also redeemed then.

Life teaches us so many lessons-of accepting certain situations - passing away of a loved one,separation from a lover,inevitable circumstances.

It is here we need to make a choice- A choice to learn.A choice to listen more.A choice to live more.And a choice to be more.

Yes,life teaches us so many lessons and pain is such an integral part of it,just like joy is.Pain blesses us - with the power to understand,to forgive,to relent,to hold on to memories,to let go,to be stronger,to be calmer,to be angry,to err and to be redeemed.

Pain makes this imperfect world,beautiful.

But then again that is personal.But I'm not afraid to talk about it anymore.


Oh,how we misunderstand Pain.



-Sriya Coomer

2:41 AM